dropped my cheque late today so i guess i'll only be rich come wed night. sigh. need to shop but this time, have to really watch how i spend. no job means only outgoing and no incoming. dumb, i sound like i'm some poor retrenched fella. but yeah, i think i should credit myself a lil for being a dedicated worker. i was told that too(err ta-da! i've my haolian moments too;)

helen's been calling me all day, telling me bout her dilemma. but really, without this mummy manager, none of us would have known what to do. so yes, i'm so thankful. spent my afternoon lazing at jeremy's house. and helen called again while i was there. then halfway jeremy did this loud screech screaming something(i forgot what) and helen was like 'what's that? was that a parrot?" and i was like "nono, that's a hamster" and she went "hamster?!". totally lame but 'twas so funny can. anyway jeremy's not feeling too well so he slept while i watched crash. if i'm not wrong the movie is about racial issues. after the show i just felt like crying. poor jeremy must have been so confused. all the pressure i'd went through finally broke me down. i guess it's good. it put some kind of closure to it. i think i've never been so harsh and direct in my words to anyone before when i typed the 12-page-long message. did pray for God's words before i started typing. i guess part of me was sad for the loved ones involved, and another was the way things turned out in the end. when i first got the job, i remember thinking to myself, how unbelievable that everyone i met was so nice to get along with. it was the perfect job and i was happy. but i guess, good things don't last. shared this sentiment with jeremy and he told me to put this behind, slowly. that i've still got him. thanks for the hugs and the shoulder and sorry for wetting your shirt..:p

i can always count on you!