open mic tonight was super busy but there was one song that struck me. lynette's rendition of when you say nothing at all was so touching i felt like crying right there and then when i was wiping the syrup bottles. it's such an ordinary song that's always being overplayed but tonight i heard the song in a new light, i suppose you can put it that way.

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark
try as i may i could never explain
what i hear when you don't say a thing

the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever i fall
you say it best.. when you say nothing at all

all day long i can hear people talking out loud
but when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd
try as they may they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine

yesterday i did the craziest thing by going to watch a movie after work. alone! the first time i watched a movie alone. it was quite creepy. me sitting alone and a few couples behind and beside me. there were only like 10 people in the theatre and the ticket people cluttered us all at the last two middle rows. i watched babel. 'twas quite interesting. got a shock when that jap girl came out of her room totally naked. anyway, had a bad scare trying to get out of the cinema. the place was so dark and so creepy i quickly called jeremy. managed to find my way out and was feeling more depressed than ever. finally i gave up and called my dad. waited at the taxi stand for him, accompanied by some weirdo who kept talking to himself. i don't know, but i just felt so touched when my dad came. it was already midnight but he still made his way down when he knew i needed help. he didn't scold, didn't complain didn't lecture didn't nag. in fact, he smiled. truth was i didn't want to be alone. couldn't stop the tears in the car. i felt so silly. but i realized family is the one who'll always be there for you no matter what. bah... i love my dad(and of course, my mom too!). and i swear i'll never watch a late night movie by myself again.

back to today. one of the performers gave me a scare when she came over to the counter and grabbed my head towards hers. turned out she just wanted to whisper in my ear to ask if i've got an extra kotex. haha! i think she didn't want the rest of the crew to know. but needless to say, they all knew in the end.

and i think working with jeremy has put this relationship of ours through alot of tests. there's so much more to a couple than just the lovey dovey stuff. hey jeremy i know you're feeling really stressed right now. just don't forget to have faith okay. and yeah, i do love you.

running away from a problem doesn't solve anything, but facing the problem is the hardest thing to do. that's the hard truth yeah? but sometimes i still tend to want to run away. and i know you do too. i know...

i also need to have more faith, not only in myself but in you.

goodnight.