from now, i shall occupy myself and make myself as busy as i can. i shall not find myself sitting in my room with nothing to do. i shall not give myself time to let my mind wander. i shall not let my heart control my mind. i shall not be lazy. this time, i want big change.

anyway, saturday's speech day was, to me, just another day. sad huh. i didn't even remember that i'd be "stepping down" from co until the performance was over and i saw liting looking all sad. yup, there was nothing. where's that feeling gone? or is there supposed to be anything at all. nah.. i shall leave all the missing to next time.

it's gonna be a busy week. i'll make this a better week. i sooo wanna kick those blues hard in the arse!! chase them away. i'm strong. or i thought i was. but im glad to have found a friend in working out.

hello, endorphins