what a flop. i didn't study physics because i was spending my whole time trying to salvage my chemistry and look what i got for it. and chemistry isn't gonna be good either.
life's about choices. life's about making decisions. life's about making mistakes. life's about learning from them. life's about knowing.. there are some things you can never change. i've also realized that.. no matter how hard i try, nothing will be perfect. when i make one happy, the other 'gets hurt'. and then what. i try to make things better, i really do. i know she's all into studying and being so busy and all now she doesn't care anymore. i can understand how she feels man. but.. i dont know.. i hope she'll stop acting like i don't care bout her anymore.
sometimes through all these running around and trying to make things work i can't help but stop in my tracks and think. think and think and think... if this keeps going on... who's gonna be the one who loses out in the end? ...... sometimes i think i should just stop being so emotional.
does it make sense to be the one holding this big responsibility while the other two just get on with life as usual...
well, i don't think so. i am quite sick and i am quite tired. its not like i dont have other problems. i want to focus on my studies for the next eight months. for now i shall just let things be. i'm okay with anything. even if one day you think i don't deserve your friendship after 'what i've done to you', it's alright. i don't mind being alone. it beats this.
well having said that i should also say that i still love you guys aloooooot
its just hard being me..